Drained and in a midst of deep turmoil indeed. Leaving a relationship has got to be one of life's worst things! I've had a five year engagement and recently have called it off, simply due to the loss of spark and passion in the relationship. I did address this every 6 months and didn't feel any improvements. But we were settled and happy in each other's company, I also gradually loss interest in sex.
I did see a relationship counselor who basically highlighted that I wasn't physically attracted to him anymore...but I think it's quite a lame reason to break up with a person...but I have done this!
Friends that have watched on the sideline have seen it coming as I've been openly contemplating this break for about a year now.
At times I really do feel like this is a mistake and want to go back to the safety, love & security that we shared... I guess we all go through this. My girlfriends are telling me not to go back, it's a choice I must endure and worry I must not do.
WEDS 30th Sept
Had dinner with M, the ex fiance. He is still in love with me, but I honestly don't feel the connection anymore. It's unsettling, how fast a relationship can disappear. I admit, I have 2 lovers over the last 3 months of breaking up. I'm 35 and perhaps at that randy age where 30 something women have a great connection with younger men...say 22!
Now, I'm working out 39 year old and there is such a different libido going on there...
Oh how life is sooo interesting when free...
But not so easy
Sunday 27 September 2009
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